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Losing hope...

Tue Apr 22, 2008, 5:52 AM
  • Mood: Unhappy
  • Listening to: 2 Sense
  • Watching: Life go by without me
  • Drinking: Pomegranate green tea
Hey all. I just wanted to put in a quick word to say how sorry I am that I've been so... bleh lately. I haven't been online at all, and anyone I owe commissions to are probably ready to skin me because it's taking so long.

I don't have any excuse, really, other than that I'm just flat out depressed as hell.

It's been three months, almost, and I still can't find a job. I've never felt so .... USELESS! So completely unwanted. -_- I mean, what the hell did I get a master's degree for? A freaking master's degree! WTF?! And the only callback I can get is for a less-than-minimum-wage waitress position? GAAAAAH!! How the hell am I supposed to make ends meet with that?

I've never felt so completely bitter and resentful in my life. I've worked hard, damn hard, throughout my entire academic career. I worked my ass off during my teaching job, and I rocked my internship. Why the hell won't someone even give me a thrice-damned interview?

The real kick in the nuts came yesterday. I finally got an interview. Yes! It was for an environmental educator position! Hell yes! It involved working with birds of prey. Effin' WOOT!

.. but it's only a 5 month seasonal position. It pays ass and I'd have to move and get an apartment near it, since it's four hours from where I'm living now, and I would be right back where I am now in September. Fucking hell.. -_-

I feel like I can't get a damn break. Is someone out there sticking voodoo pins in a doll of me or something?! Could you quit it for, like, just one damn month please?!

I feel like giving up... :(

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*victortky:iconvictortky: Apr 22, 2008, 7:23:08 AM
Hope you get well soon.

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~aaarhus:iconaaarhus: Apr 22, 2008, 7:30:47 AM
I know that feeling...

I mean... well maybe I don't. I've not been in a jobless position since starting working, unfortunately I also haven't finished college.

I seem to have a job that I can hold... but anyone could do it, were it not that the people there like my attitude and everything. So... I guess in this place I stay.

Do have a lift up in life... ^w^
~ShadowDragon252:iconShadowDragon252: Apr 22, 2008, 8:52:35 AM
Ugh...that sounds awful...and doesn't really give me much hope for my own future...since i'm not really learning anything that has a point...at least, not right now (I have the most useless major in the curriculum -__-). I know how you feel about the job searching though...been there, STILL doing that...been for about 3 years now and the best i've gotten is a summer position (and the only reason for that is because i knew the people).

I REALLY REALLY REALLY wish you luck finding a job. No one should have to feel that unwanted and useless. Speaking from my own experience, I do hope you land something GREAT that makes this wait at least somewhat worth it. I'm still trying to make it out of my own 3-4 month depression rut -____- so I hope things really do get better for you very soon.

Best of luck FF <3

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~Marjask:iconMarjask: Apr 22, 2008, 10:17:14 AM
Unfortunately, I can't find much to say other than to never stop trying. Someday, somehow, things will turn better than they are right now, and when that happens, you'll be glad that you stuck with it. If anything, look at all of the people you have behind you, and supporting you through this. Take heart in that.

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=netherwings:iconnetherwings: Apr 22, 2008, 10:30:48 AM
Don't give up, dear. :hug:

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Mood: Cheerful ~draconianknight:icondraconianknight: Apr 22, 2008, 12:09:52 PM
Everything should get better soon. I hope you feel better.

Hope this will make you feel a little better. ATTACK OF THE SMILIES!!!
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

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*Skythe-Soulblade:iconSkythe-Soulblade: Apr 22, 2008, 12:41:43 PM
what can I do?

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~Shadera:iconShadera: Apr 22, 2008, 12:51:36 PM
My sisters kinda going through the same types of things , i am sorry . i hope things get better and the only thing i can say is the more you struggle now the less you'll have to later. just hang in there, i'm sure you'll find a job soon ;)

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~Yiro-Xyrali:iconYiro-Xyrali: Apr 22, 2008, 1:06:52 PM
*sigh* such is the life of an artist.
I'm sorry to hear what your going through, I hope you feel better :heart:
~UpsilonEexe:iconUpsilonEexe: Apr 22, 2008, 5:16:27 PM
Just keep at it, about all you can do I suppose. When you find the job meant for you, it'll happen :)
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